*excited*

The reason for my excitement?! Well tomorrow I'm going with 2 friends to be in the audience for MTV's TRL.....why would you want to do such a thing I hear you ask. Green day are gonna be on - woo! I'm gonna be in an small studio with green day and alex zane (swoon) I dont think it can get much better that that! Gonna have to have a few drinkies beforehand tho, or else I dont think I'll be able to cheer convincingly ;)

Today I have been thinking about how girls get obsessed and infatuated with some guys. I'm sure guys get crushes and stuff but it doesn't seem to manifest in the same way...or maybe they just hide it better! I'm not just talking about normal fancying, I'm talking about infatuation. When it's all you think about and all you want to talk about. When every action and word is analysed to look for some hidden meaning that he's secretly desperately in love with you. (ie. he hugged me 3 seconds longer than normal, what does that mean?!) It doesnt matter that he doesnt reply to your texts and that you never do go for that drink that he mentioned. It's all to do with that wanting what you can't have thing, except with this obsessive type of crush in you're head there's a part of you that thinks you can have him, and that's why the crush doesn't just move on and evolves into this infatuation that has you worrying about your sanity. Logic and reason do not apply, no matter how rational you are about the reality of the situation and the fact you know that really he is just a bastard (see below) you can't help being completely irrational in your thoughts. Most bizarre.

Calling men bastards. That's another thing I've been thinking about. It seems to me that girls will often label a guy a bastard just because he doesn't fancy her, or say he slept with her and doesn't want anymore. Of course guys are bastards to girls sometimes but if a girl has a one night stand with a guy then doesn't call him then that's fine with her, in fact it will probably be the guy's fault for not being up to her 'standards'. Anyway, it all seems like we'll call a guy a bastard at the drop of a hat (well i would be a bit annoyed if he dropped my hat - sorry) but really I don't think they're any worse than us girls! I mean, girls are bitches!!!

Today I listened to:
Less than Jake - Anthem
Rock Against Bush - Fat Wreck Chords compilation
Muse - Absolution
Finch - What it is to burn
My Chemical Romance - I brought you my bullets, you brought me your love
Disturbed - The Sickness
The Killers - Hot Fuss