*excited*

The reason for my excitement?! Well tomorrow I'm going with 2 friends to be in the audience for MTV's TRL.....why would you want to do such a thing I hear you ask. Green day are gonna be on - woo! I'm gonna be in an small studio with green day and alex zane (swoon) I dont think it can get much better that that! Gonna have to have a few drinkies beforehand tho, or else I dont think I'll be able to cheer convincingly ;)

Today I have been thinking about how girls get obsessed and infatuated with some guys. I'm sure guys get crushes and stuff but it doesn't seem to manifest in the same way...or maybe they just hide it better! I'm not just talking about normal fancying, I'm talking about infatuation. When it's all you think about and all you want to talk about. When every action and word is analysed to look for some hidden meaning that he's secretly desperately in love with you. (ie. he hugged me 3 seconds longer than normal, what does that mean?!) It doesnt matter that he doesnt reply to your texts and that you never do go for that drink that he mentioned. It's all to do with that wanting what you can't have thing, except with this obsessive type of crush in you're head there's a part of you that thinks you can have him, and that's why the crush doesn't just move on and evolves into this infatuation that has you worrying about your sanity. Logic and reason do not apply, no matter how rational you are about the reality of the situation and the fact you know that really he is just a bastard (see below) you can't help being completely irrational in your thoughts. Most bizarre.

Calling men bastards. That's another thing I've been thinking about. It seems to me that girls will often label a guy a bastard just because he doesn't fancy her, or say he slept with her and doesn't want anymore. Of course guys are bastards to girls sometimes but if a girl has a one night stand with a guy then doesn't call him then that's fine with her, in fact it will probably be the guy's fault for not being up to her 'standards'. Anyway, it all seems like we'll call a guy a bastard at the drop of a hat (well i would be a bit annoyed if he dropped my hat - sorry) but really I don't think they're any worse than us girls! I mean, girls are bitches!!!

Today I listened to:
Less than Jake - Anthem
Rock Against Bush - Fat Wreck Chords compilation
Muse - Absolution
Finch - What it is to burn
My Chemical Romance - I brought you my bullets, you brought me your love
Disturbed - The Sickness
The Killers - Hot Fuss

helloeverybodypeeps

Eeek, gave Bob my blog addy today so I guess that means people I know might actually read this thing.....

So i've been thinking about war....

I think instead of having armies every country should have some sort of giant animal. Then instead of a war there would just be a duel between the two 'mascots'. It wouldnt really change the outcome of conflicts because it would still be the countries with the most money that win cos their monsters would be better trained etc but less normal people would have to die, plus you wouldnt need armies and it would probably cost less. In the days of genetic modification I don't see why this couldnt happen.

My ear cancer infected piercing seems to be going down which is a good thing, musnt stop cleaning it now!!! I bet if I got my eyebrow pierced i'd end up getting that infected too, that would be soo ugly!

Today I listened to these albums:
AFI - Sing the Sorrow
Millencolin - Pennybridge Pioneers
Random compilation free from Rock Sound
The Used - In Love and Death
Pennywise - Straight Ahead

Kill the damn things!

Daddylonglegs......my house seems to be infested with the things. Now I don't normally have a problem with this spindley legged flys (which is weird cos i hate spiders) but these ones are just HUGE so I think I may have to resort to murder....that's only if I can't get them out of my room tho.

Today was ok. Had a bit of a worry about going back to uni this afternoon. Was listening to a slow song by skunk anansie, it made me feel a bit sad I think I am slightly petrified deep down that I'm going to majorly hurt when I am faced with the reality of my situation. However it could be an overreaction and I might be fine! Will have to wait and see......

hurrah, just killed the daddylongleg!

In other news I am very much looking foward to the stuff we're gonna be doing with AIM (Alternative/Indie Music Society) I want to get as involved as I can as I think this is gonna be way to make friends with people I actually want to be friends with. I just spent all evening designing a flyer. It turned out shit. Dammit.

Periods suck. Be thankful boys.

And so it begins

Well here I am jumping on the bloggy bandwaggon. I actually just wrote a long post but I lost it as I was messing about trying to get a photo uploaded. I can't be bothered to write it all again. Needless to say I went to the Comedy Store last night and had an excellent evening. Today has been spent mostly sleeping and eating, as all sundays should.

Writing a blog seems like one of the most emo things to do ever. I guess that depends on how much of what goes on it your head you actually post. But from what I've read on other blogs the most interesting ones are the ones with the thoughts and feelings on it, rather than 'today i did this...' I kinda like the idea of writing everything I'm feeling on here, but then I dont think I'd want people I know to read it! Hmmm.

Well this here picture is a design of the tattoo I am going to get on saturday. It's emo stars and I'm going to have it on my back/left shoulderblade about 6cm long. I'm very excited about it although I keep having to put off getting it. I was intending to get it yesterday morning but then I decided against it as i was planning to go to an alternative club last night (which didn't happen - grrr) and I think it's probably best to be sensible about looking after it!



A lot of my friends are very against me getting inked. It's rather irritating. Fair enough that they don't want one themselves but I don't see why they can't support my decision, it's not like I haven't thought about it. Similarly I was considering getting my lip pierced and none of them liked that idea. I think the real reason I wanted one was because I find them very sexy on guys. So I think i'm going to leave it to them! Now i'm gonna go for an eyebrow bar. Bit annoyed that Bob has just had both of these piercings done.......it all makes it seems a bit cliched, ah well, tattoo is the first thing.

Why do I feel like I'm going in a different direction from my friends? I've really started looking at my life really and thinking about who I am. Maybe I'm going through a bit of rebellion. I don't know, but I see that at lot of my friends have gone to uni and they've come back less rock. I don't want this to happen to me. Music is such a huge part of my life and who I am, I really don't want to forget that.

I think i'm just talking rubbish now......

Are we allowed to swear on this?